my dad's superpower is to keep asking me stuff at my most vulnurable and breaking points like if i dodged your question let it go na. He does it so often too, even tho i have a permanent scar on my left leg because of this. back in 2022, when my phone was stolen and he kept on asking me to explain my uncle how it go stolen while i am in the shower getting ready for my classes and boom i can't even walk for a week.
I wear shorts at home now which myself from a year ago would find unbelieveable but i can't give a fuck anymore and everytime my mom sees the scar she's like omg it has gotten so lighter like does she want me to make it that bad agaian like i don't get it. and btw everyone is cutting these days or atleast i am finding out to the point not cutting is my method of self torture like i remmeber this month in a single day i saw a guy with cuts irl( i had only seen girls before), this girl i am friends with, this other girl ik since 1st year, girl who sat beside me in the auto, brishti telling me about her friend, all in the same day too.
what happened today was that my mom was gonna go buy stuff from a nearby shop and i was free and my parents think i am too lazy but that's not the case. anyway mom said she'll go but she was sick so i said i would go. i who is terrified to wallk alone and always takes the long way home. it was the shop near my cousin's shop. i go down and i can see his shadow wgich is funny because i can't see people in front of me without my glasses. i couldn't go to that shop ovbiously so ithought i'll take the other road to the shop which was like 15 mins and full of dogs and shit and drunk guys. know my brother couldn't hurt me anymore but still. Also he bought my sister an ice cream earlier this month and it was my favourite flsvour but i quit eating that flavor after that or how brishti came on 16th june last year (the day he got engaged) and mom made pav bhaji for her because she said she liked it when i asked her the day before and i used to like it tooo as a kid but don't anymore because he likes it too. anyway i find a new store on my way to the store and by some miracle this store had everything i neede dand while i'm there my dad calls me and is like oh i can't se you and why didn't you go there blah blah and asked me several times again when i came back home like i just don't want ot answer and then my mom was saying a few days ago how sexual assault is at such a rise in this country and people aren't even safe at home like yea no shit sherlock.although this was just one of the several worst things that happened. melbourne forgaave her ex for the billionth time and got back with him because he was crying blah blah and i also found out bristol deleted the playlist she made for me back in 28th of september 2022 which meant the world to me, all the for a guy who makes me want to kill myself and has made me severly sick and dosent even give a fuck avout me. i love absolutely everyone in my life right now.