I hope that's his correct full name. Everyday I microdose on his relationship with Wurtz and no i don't search it up i just happen to come across it. Last month i spent almost two if not three weeks diseccting mirror to mirror. Eat sleep MtM was the routine. I also never really judged him because i have weird/bad interests too which i HOPE everyone does but um if you see the genius annotations for the portrait of an artist as a young fag you'll see what i mean, maybe. I also kinda get it why Will liked Cate. Also the fact the whatever relationship was just a year that was between 2010 to 2011. I was literally roaming around the country with my parents back then eating fun stuff and spending time with my cousin who i somewhat idolize. He legit turned 23 man. You know when i was in 6th grade i used to think how when I'm a certain age he'll be a more significant certain age and how i might feel about his age. It's like there always be someone older than me which is sweet. Also i look at so many pictures of will daily that i feel like if i start hallucinating ever i will be hallucinating will. But then he doesn't show up in my dreams so my thoughts of him are just superficial and not like subconscious. I did sleep by one last night. Woke up at seven then slept again then woke up again at 8 something showerd, did my maths class returned was doing web dev, it's 12:15 rn, i have classes again from 1pm till ig 4. I do not want to be out in this heat, eternally grateful i don't have to travel in this heat. Haven't had a proper conversation with Melbourne in a while but she keeps saying things are okay most of the time so i'll believe that. My tomorrow's lab is fun, it's of digital systems. I like the subjct. I'll go back to web development. fuck i js tried to "connect" with someone on twitter like the ghost of unemployment in me sees every social media as linkedin. Aslo saw someone say 11 years ago and they were 27 like man so you mean when you were 16? I was 16 four years ago an had a tumblr blog where i wrote shit like this (on my sub blog not main) and then THEY FUCKING DELETED ALL MY FOUR BLOGS on 14th Jan the next year. I was never so desperate for a company but yea i did breach the guidelines lol. I will not return on Tumblr, also Sufjan doesn't use his account anymore it's managed by his team, i hope he is okay, i hope everyone who i genuinely like is okay, the others can live ig. will write more if i feel like tonight.
bro, this girl who's birthday was yesterday (i lied to her about not going out last month) she's a friend from school says this girl from college is my bestfriend now why would you say this man lowkey pissed to delete instagram again. WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT, this is what people mean whenn they say instagram relationships aren't real. I mean my friendship with that girl did have an evolution given i fucking hated her and we lowkey friends now, mostly because her primary friend got a boyfriend and her roommate turned a bit weird and our other friend keeps talking to boys she should't despite us warning her which leaves both of us together. Do i think we are friends? honestly no but i do like her compared to other friends because she doesn't cross certain boundaries or force me to do stuff like others but then she does other things to piss me off at times but still alright. I'll write about college sometime soon.
15:57 rn, i don't know what form of drugs i am on but i made a COMPLETLY NEW AND DIFFERENT meaning out of these lyrics from Beach Life in Death. I opened linkedin because i was like let's search this friend up she has a similar name to mine and um MY COUSIN SISTER WHO IS 8 YEARS OLDER THAN ME popped up, i never mentioned my name on this blog but it is similar to her, like her brother named me after her pretty much the reason half the time anyone says my name i'm like "ah yes, me!" like i js saw my cousin sister's profile which was recommended on my friends profile and as my head is always csh mode these certain lyrics HIT ME and i was like "what should i do? write on blogger". Also remember how i hope Melbourne is fine and all, just saw instagram, i'm not very active there but well she is far from better. today is a shit day, i absolutely hate wednesdays. I legit had 2 classes that too one i barely understood, the other my friend kept talking. /last wednesday was shit so was this. So fucking hot i want to kill the sun. I cannot help my friend(s). Melbourne at the moment, what do i do? Go to meet her? she's like 21 kilometers away and it takes two hours to travel. What do i do even if i meet her? Tell her to stop? stop what? How. Extrememly inactive on twitter because i js don't want to be, opened it today and saw a thread on how to comfort people, didn't read it. Closed twitter. I don't like my friends here because are we even friends. I genuinely as a friend like this one girl because she never pissed me off, the same girl with whom i watched Mysterious Skin with. We aren't really good friends but she lowkey gets what i'm tryna say, maybe i'll make a post on people from college. It's almost gonna be a year since i joined and i hate college as much as i did because i was correct about everything. Did eat the banana today btw, felt so sane. If i ever live by myself i'll eat bananas daily. Pretty easy to eat, hated them as a kid tho. I also read the newspaper today. Lowkey avoid it cause tf you mean. I love Beach life in death so much i want to cry, what would i be without twin fantasy. I was thinking the other day that i would've loved csh in middle school or as a teen and my immediate next thought was a big NO. seriously. I have a severe case of Will Toledoism where I want to look like him and write songs like him. He's also actually tall unlike me. I am in fact not actually tall, just relatively. Not that i like tall people, rather i find them annoying tbh. What even is a tall person anyway. It's so hot and i accidently wore clothes that are lowkey thermal like meant for winter, this top and my pants were already. I have these black pants that i wear ALL THE TIME and yes i do wash them in time. I have decided i won't look at pictures of Will unless i finish calculus till Fourier and I will not listen to his music until i finish Web Development. Yes, i like to torture myself. I don't even listen to TOP anymore, just waiting for Breach. I am listening to Twin Fantasy MtM one last time and locking tf in. This guy came to meet me so i had to change my cloths to go meet him tf.A sticker from his bike's helmet came off, he sent me a picture asking if i could fix it like boy just slap some glue. /i did kinda igmore him throughout the day bt i went with glue this time and shit won't come out so i now have his helmet in my room I am gonna get KICKED out of my hostel. Nice helmet tho wait I'll show you
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