The eyes glare at me and distort
They're always staring at me ma, I keep saying.
You've always said it's all in my head, it's all in me.
I know it's all in me and I don't want it.
What would life be if that never happened?
You're not at home, I sit with the blade in the bathroom.
I know I promised I won't maybe for the hundredth time.
I'm sorry,
Honestly, I'd rather die but I know you like me and how much it'd break you if I was gone.
I keep holding a little longer, but there's an end to it.
It's dad's birthday today but you woke me up with gifts.
And to you dad, in sorry for who I was.
I remember how happy you were when you saw me eat when you came back from work
Just for me to later purge it in the toilet like every other day.
I did not choose to be like this, I would never.
But things like this kept happening for all those years.
Right in front of your eyes, why didn't you see?
I'm sorry I lie a lot to you, I have this feeling that you'll dislike me for who I am, please forgive me.
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