I wore the same outfit. I did have a better lip gloss combo today (cherry lip stain from the face shop+ Maybelline lifter gloss in the shade pearl) I kept my hair open but mom said I'm not going to marry hair ( as in apply Sindoor with my blank head) so she gave me a hairband. I wanted to wear converse but they were old. I didn't take anything for her except a ten ruppee pack of chip that reminded me of my favourite childhood chips and a clay mushroom that my brother ruined. Later I bought two Snickers ( one for her mom)
Meanwhile, miss ma'am Bristol:
AND TWO POEMS ON TOP OF THAT. ONE IN HINDI AND ONE IN ENGLISH. She knows I like Snickers, I literally like her so much. Also the geometric thing is my favourite, I'll add it to my blog. I wish I could make it rotate in my blog but idk how to do that://. Also the cube has stuff I like. She's so sweet.
We ate baby corn and almond brownie. This was my second time eating babycorn. The first time I ate it was at my tuition teacher's palce as a kid. Also the place where we ate was near the place where I first saw Bristol outside of school. It was in sixth grade. She was wearing a dark pink top with holes ig on the top part and jeans. She came on a bike with her dad to buy craft supplies. She hated me back then I'm sure. I was wearing a brown white skirt, the same skirt that I wore in ninth grade while tying him my last rakhi. I really love giving flowers to Bristol. Also Bristol was super pretty today, she's always pretty, her outfits never miss.
Even though we got separate plates we shared from the tray, I definitely ate more than her. Also she put a piece in my plate as I wasn't eating so I did the same until we finished eating. We talked about stuff. It felt so nice. I swear in that moment time didn't seem to pass. It was unreal. I mean it. I paid the bill because I was guilty I didn't buy anything for her. She asked if I wanted to get ice creams and I said yes sowe went to a nearby shop but it didn't have many flavours so I legit ran away. We went to a pasty shop to buy ice creams but then Bristol easily gets sick plus it was raining so I thought it was best to stick to brownie. The lady who took the brownies out asked if we wanted to eat on spot or pack it and I mostly pack it so I said that. Idk where we'd eat in the rain.
Because I'm so used to walking everywhere I just assumed that Bristol will walk back home and that wouldn't be safe. Honestly being in a vehicle isn't safe either cause what if they take you to a different place, ik lowkey paranoid but I care about her safety, also one of the reasons I choose to walk. So anyway we went to this field near our school which is on the way to Bristol's house. We wanted yo enter but it was lowkey filled with mud and we didn't want to ruin our shoes so we ate outside. The weather was so nice. Idk precisely remember what we talked about but I liked it. She clicked a few pictures of me (I'm giving borderline obese in them 😭) when I tried to click her picture she kept running away and I wanted to but then I just stopped. It's actually scary that I don't remember most of the stuff we talked about cause what if I said something insane. At one point I asked her what was her highest step as a joke but then I realised I'm not in an edtwt group meet-up and it's probably not a very normal question to ask. I told her I wanted to buy something for my siblings from a very specific shop near her house just so I could drop her but I ended up buying Snickers. She wanted me to take a toto nack home but these calories aren't gonna burn themselves so I told her I'm meeting my mom near school and literally ran away. I didn't look back. I wanted to stand and see athat se actually reached home but then she kept inviting me and that would be weird so I hoped for the best and almost ran. I then met my mom near our house and went to a parlor to make my eyebrows because I'm participating in that competition. I lowkey look scary so I'm glad I didn't meet her like this. Then me and my mom went to buy a few accessories. My mom's nice. I know this post is mostly about how I care so much but in all honesty Bristol was the one who cares the most. While walking she kept pulling me to the safer side because I somehow kept going in the middle of the road. Also, to clarify the title, I generally hold people's hand while crossing the road but I didn't do that with Bristol because I thought it would be weird. Also, Bristol paid for the brownies, even though I was the one who asked for them. Also Bristol kept saying "whatever you want" to any question liek where she wabts to go, or what she wants to eat. I was pretty upset cause I mske horrible decisions and Bristol had to bear up with it. Idk. Am I the most horrible friend? I'm so sorry. I have nothing important to say. I really don't remember what we talked about, like most of it. Also Melbourne and S are probably breking their friendship. I hope they forgive each other soon. Bristol told Melbourne that we went out and sent her my pictures, I asked Melbourne to send them to me and I'm literally giving WHALE, the blue color tshirt isn't helping either.
My arms in this one are so fat it's super ewww like literally purgespo.
The combination on my fridge like body and oversized arms and ugliest face on earth aren't giving anything at all. Like look at my waist bro I'm so HORRIBLY fat.
Let's not even start on this one like my god my waist is just like a balloon. Why am I so fat. I was planning to start a 400 hour fast inspired by two people on twitter and this is my motivation for it. Like the only fatspo that exists is me. Fattest bitch ever in an ugly way. Also I don't have anything against fat people or people who are at a higher weight or are overweight. They're all super pretty. The only body I judge is mine. Being fat is not a flaw, I just used to weigh more when I was assaulted so the lesser I weigh the safer I am.
I'm sorry if this post comes out as narcissistic. That was not my intention. I really like Bristol and I appreciate her existence. I'm glad I was born because I got to meet her. I really appreciate her and I hope she has an amazing life. She once asked me while we were eating brownies who my closest friend in college was and my stupid brain said "you" and she was probably taken aback. So I tried to come up with some explanation. I wish I could be a better and deserving friend. I'm sorry, Bristol.
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