I want Mitski to baptize me

 Dear Friend,

There are almost twenty-one days left for college to open. Nothing hasn't changed much but I don't feel as terrible now. I will eventually leave home and go meet people in July, I'm sure. A lot of things are going on. I need to study. I need to be serious. There is a fucking cockroach on my switchboard rn. I hope everyone I care about eventually starts to feel better. That fuckass cockroach was on my laptop so I threw it. Someone please hold me back from liking bright pink hair a little too much, I am so emo I was born with black hair. Today I will eat one of my favorite ice creams, probably. Everything will be alright. Yes. I know. Won't be back here until I finally study everything that i am supposed to. Take care.

FUCK MY STUPID BAKA LIFE ALL I DO IS LOOK AT PICTURES OF WILL TOLEDO ON MY PINTEREST AND LISTEN TO HIS GAYASS SONGS ON SOUNDCLOUD AND A FEW ON SPOTIFY AHA HAHA AHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA. NO WILL TOLEDO FROM TOMORROW AND NO MITCHEL WELLING EITHER. ONLY SUFJAN STEVENS BECAUSE HE IS AN ANGEEELLL. I AGAIN HAVE A LOT TO SAY BUT I WILL SHUT THE FUCK UP. BYE. WON'T BE FUCKING BACK FOR A REALLY LONG TIME. 

BACK AGAIN, IT'S LITERALLY 00:00 SO 24TH OF JUNE I WAS SLEEPING BUT I FUCKING CAME BACK TO WRITE THAT I SAW A CLIP OF JOSH DUN SINGING STRESSED OUT AND EARLIER TODAY I SAW A CLIP OF TYLER SAYING HE HATED HIS VOICE FROM CONSTANTLY SINGING AND LOVED JOSH'S VOICE AND I THOUGHT IT WAS SO SWEET BUT LIKE I HEARD JOSH AND HE SOUNDS LIKE AN ANGEL LIKE SING ME TO SLEEP PAPA, ALSO IF YOU KNOW ME YOU KNOW THAT I LIKE TYLER A LOT MORE BUT LIKE JOSH?!?!?! YOU'RE SO SWEET, LOVE HIS WIFE DEBBIE AS WELL, SUCH AN ICON, READ THIS THEORY ON REDDIT SAYING THAT THE LAST SONG ON THEIR LATEST ALBUM BREACH WILL BW SUNG BY JOSH AND MAN I HOPE IT IS. I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE TWENTY ONE PILOTS WHERE WOULD I BE WITHOUT THEM, OR LIL PEEP OR FLATSOUND. LIKE LOVE THEM SO SO SO MUCH, I WANNA LISTEN TO BREACH RN BUT IT COMES OUT IN SEPTEMBER MAN, GOTTA SAVE MONEY TO VISIT THEIR CONCERT AAHAHAHAHAH, OKI BAI IF MY DAD SEES ME HE WILL GET ANGRY LOL TAKE CARE.

Although, please believe that things are good with me, and even when they're not, they will soon be enough. And I will always believe the same about you.

Love always, Charlie.